It's snowing outside, so school was canceled. I have literally been in the bed all day.
It's not been a good start to the New Year for me. I took yet another negative pregnancy test on New Years Day, and saying that I'm discouraged or disappointed would be a huge understatement. We've been trying for over a year (since Sept 2008) to have a baby, and we finally got pregnant in July 2009, only to have a miscarriage. We had taken a couple of months off from trying before then, and were so, so excited that I had finally gotten pregnant. I was devastated when I didn't see that heartbeat at my first ultrasound.
Since I had to have a D&C after the miscarriage, we had to wait three months before we could try again. So December was our first try. I really, really thought that I'd get pregnant right away after our three cycle wait. Everyone, including our OB told us that you're more fertile after a miscarriage, but I guess that's not true for us. We thought we'd figured it all out.
I have gone back and forth about blogging about this, but I'm the kind of person who feels like I need to just get it all out on the table. It makes me feel a little better to talk about it.
I know that God has a plan for us, and that we will get our miracle baby in His time, but I'm having some serious struggles with waiting. I also know that there are people who've waited a lot longer than we have, but that doesn't make me feel better. It just makes me feel even worse for those women.
At the end of the day, I still have hope. I know in my heart that I am meant to be a mother. I just wish it would happen a little sooner, and cause me a little less heartache.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Cast Iron Cookware
If you know me at all, you know that I love, love, love, traditional/antique cooking utensils. Especially cast iron cookware. There are many benefits of using this cookware.
First of all, since the cookware contains iron, that is deposited in your food, which is a good thing. Second, if seasoned correctly and cared for, your pots and skillets will be totally non-stick, without a scary Teflon coating. I read somewhere the other day about teflon, and how when heated to 500 degrees (basically preheating on high heat) the fumes will kill an exotic bird, like a parrot. Yuck. (On a side note, I just hate teflon/non-stick pans because you have to use plastic or wooden utensils only. It's a pain.)
Here are some pictures of some of the pieces I've collected over the years.
A Dutch Oven with Glass Lid. If you ever purchase one of these, buy one with a lid.
A skillet. I have a three of these. The size is determined by a number on the back.
A griddle pan. It's like a grill pan, but with no ridges. I actually don't use this one a lot, because it is really old, and therefore made for an older stove with burners that are closer together.This is the back of it, by the way :)
A griddle and a corn stick pan.
My favorite piece, the muffin pan. It makes 11 muffins, which I think is so quaint, and it makes THE BEST muffins and corn muffins ever in the history of the world. They are always perfectly browned on top and bottom. I love it!
First of all, since the cookware contains iron, that is deposited in your food, which is a good thing. Second, if seasoned correctly and cared for, your pots and skillets will be totally non-stick, without a scary Teflon coating. I read somewhere the other day about teflon, and how when heated to 500 degrees (basically preheating on high heat) the fumes will kill an exotic bird, like a parrot. Yuck. (On a side note, I just hate teflon/non-stick pans because you have to use plastic or wooden utensils only. It's a pain.)
Here are some pictures of some of the pieces I've collected over the years.
A Dutch Oven with Glass Lid. If you ever purchase one of these, buy one with a lid.
A skillet. I have a three of these. The size is determined by a number on the back.
Brands:
There are several different brands of cast iron cookware. The most popular is probably Lodge, but I detest it, because their skillets come "pre-seasoned" and are impossible to season yourself. I had a Lodge skillet that I sold because it never, ever, became non-stick, no matter how much I used it.
I recommend going to an antique store, flea market, or an auction, and buying either Griswold or Wagner pans. They are the absolute best. They'll say Griswold or Wagner-ware on the back. If it doesn't, don't let anyone tell you that's what it is. A real Griswold or Wagner piece will run $30-$50 dollars in an antique store, but you can find cheaper ones at auctions or flea markets.
Trust me, whatever you spend will be worth it. Your great-grandchildren will still be using your pans.
How to Season a Pan:
When you get the pan home, get a heavy-duty scrubber (I like the Brillo pads with soap in them) and scrub all the gunk off. (This is why Lodge pans are not that great; you can't ever get the store gunk off.) If it looks pretty black, slick, and shiny, you can skip this. If there is any rust or anything, you need to do this.
Turn your oven on to 400 degrees. Coat your skillet with an ANIMAL FAT grease, such as bacon grease or lard. Alternately, you can cook some bacon in the skillet, eat the bacon (yum!) and leave the grease.
Put it in the oven for about 10-15 minutes, until the grease is all melted. Then, CAREFULLY, with paper towels or an old rag, get most of the grease out of the pan. Leave a good coating on it.
Put the pan back in the oven at 200 degrees for several hours. I usually just leave it in there and forget about it all day.
You are ready to use the pan! It won't be instantly non-stick, you'll have to cook in it awhile. I suggest cooking greasy foods at first in it to help the seasoning.
Care of Your Pans:
1. After using, rinse with the hottest water your sink will produce. You can use a scrubber, as long as it's not metal (like a Brillo pad).
2. Let dry completely before storing. This prevents rust.
3. Do not ever, ever EVER use soap on your pans. It will take off the seasoning.
4. If you cook something acidic, like tomato sauce, and leave it in the pan too long, it may take off some of the seasoning. Just season again, or cook something greasy next time you use it.
Enjoy your cast iron cookware! It lasts several lifetimes!
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Years Supper
It's a Southern tradition to eat two things on New Years. First, is black-eyed peas, because they bring good luck in the new year. Second is collard greens because they bring money in the new year. I haven't gone without eating these two things on New Years Day as long as I can remember. I was born in March, and by the next January, I was eating table food, so I'm sure I had my peas and greens as a 10 month old.
Usually we eat roast pork, or leg of lamb with our greens, but this year, I decided to do something a little different. We had shrimp and grits, collard greens, and Texas caviar. If you've never had Texas caviar, it's basically a dip made from black-eyed peas.
If you THINK you don't like collards, I BEG you to try this recipe. Most people do not know how to cook this gem of a vegetable. They don't cook them long enough, and they add too much liquid.
Southern Collard Greens:
You need to get a big bunch of collard greens. One large bunch serves about 4-6 people, depending on what else you're serving (and who'll eat them, of course!) Then, before you wash them, strip them of their stems and chop. I usually roll them up like a big cigar and slice them. Please, please don't leave the stems on. They are just tough and gross.
Put the chopped greens in a sink full of cold water, swish them around a bunch, and then drain in a colander.
Shrimp with Gravy:
You need one pound of shrimp for this. I used the frozen, pre-peeled and deveined kind (DON'T get the pre-cooked kind-blech!) and defrosted them by putting them in a colander set in a bowl of water for about 15 minutes. Pat them dry REALLY well after this.
If you have access to really good, fresh shrimp, then I am really jealous.
Put the shrimp in a bowl with:
2 tablespoons lemon juice
1/4 tsp ground red pepper
1 tsp salt
Set aside.
Then fry up 1/4 cup onion and 1/3 red or green bell peppers with about 3T bacon grease (it really is better with the bacon grease!)
Add 2 tablespoons of flour to make a roux. Let the mixture get golden brown.
Cook just until shrimp are pink, and gravy is thickened. If it's too thick, you can add a little more stock. Season to taste with salt and pepper, and serve over grits.
We were two happy customers, let me tell ya!
Usually we eat roast pork, or leg of lamb with our greens, but this year, I decided to do something a little different. We had shrimp and grits, collard greens, and Texas caviar. If you've never had Texas caviar, it's basically a dip made from black-eyed peas.
If you THINK you don't like collards, I BEG you to try this recipe. Most people do not know how to cook this gem of a vegetable. They don't cook them long enough, and they add too much liquid.
Southern Collard Greens:
You need to get a big bunch of collard greens. One large bunch serves about 4-6 people, depending on what else you're serving (and who'll eat them, of course!) Then, before you wash them, strip them of their stems and chop. I usually roll them up like a big cigar and slice them. Please, please don't leave the stems on. They are just tough and gross.
Put the chopped greens in a sink full of cold water, swish them around a bunch, and then drain in a colander.
Then, in a big pot (I use a cast iron dutch oven) put about a tablespoon of either butter or bacon grease, and fry up some salt pork, or bacon at med-high heat. We bought a half-pig this year, and I had some uncured bacon (basically side meat) and I used that.
Fry until crisp.
Then, put in your greens. You'll have to put in a few at a time, and stir them up to wilt them. If you put them all in the pot at the same time, you won't be able to stir.
Then you're going to put in the following:
- 1 1/2 cups of chicken stock (homemade or store bought, whatever)
- 1 1/2 tablespoons of sugar (I use a natural sweetener like sucanat or maple syrup)
- 1 1/2 tablespoons of vinegar
- Salt to taste (my chicken stock is homemade, and unsalted, so I used about 2 tsp.)
- Red pepper flakes (just sprinkle on to taste; I probably used about 1/4 tsp or a little more)
Stir all that up and put the lid on. Let cook on med-med/low heat for about 30-45 minutes. When the greens are dark green, tender, and they've absorbed most of the liquid, they're done. My hubby eats these with extra vinegar on the side.
Texas Caviar:
This recipe is a Rachael Ray, and I thought it was "delish." I found the BEST tortilla chips to serve with this. They came from Sam's Club, and they're whole grain, organic, and yummy!
You need:
- 4 cups cooked black-eyed peas, drained and cooled (I used a frozen bag, and cooked them about 30 minutes in about an inch of water.)
- 1 cup diced yellow onion
- 1 cup diced red onion (I used all yellow onion; just a big one)
- 1 green or red bell pepper, diced
- 1 tablespoon minced garlic
- 1 tablespoon Cajun seasoning
- 1/3 cup olive oil
- 1/3 cup red wine vinegar
- 1 teaspoon black pepper
Shrimp and Grits:
This is really a breakfast food, but we always it for supper, ha ha.
First, you need to cook some delicious, creamy grits. Now, usually, grits are just made with water, but these are outstanding. Ever since I found this recipe, I make grits this way.
You need:
2 cups of water
2 tablespoons butter
1/2 cup grits
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup half and half or cream, divided
1/2 cup cheddar cheese, shredded
Boil the water and butter. Add the grits and salt. Cook on med-low heat, until they're creamy, and absorbed a lot of the water, about 10 minutes. Then add 1/2 cup half and half, and cook 7-10 more minutes. Add last 1/2 cup half and half and cook until done (about 5-7 minutes).
(Isn't this measuring cup pretty? It's depression glass!)
Add cheese and stir until all melted.
Shrimp with Gravy:
You need one pound of shrimp for this. I used the frozen, pre-peeled and deveined kind (DON'T get the pre-cooked kind-blech!) and defrosted them by putting them in a colander set in a bowl of water for about 15 minutes. Pat them dry REALLY well after this.
If you have access to really good, fresh shrimp, then I am really jealous.
Put the shrimp in a bowl with:
2 tablespoons lemon juice
1/4 tsp ground red pepper
1 tsp salt
Set aside.
Then fry up 1/4 cup onion and 1/3 red or green bell peppers with about 3T bacon grease (it really is better with the bacon grease!)
Add 2 tablespoons of flour to make a roux. Let the mixture get golden brown.
Next, add 3/4 chicken stock and your shrimp mixture.
We were two happy customers, let me tell ya!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
I Am Not a Commercial, I Promise!
Ok, this is the silliest post EVER, but I have to tell y'all about my new pot scrubber brush. It came from Williams and Sonoma (I know, I'm "posh"--just kidding, it was a Christmas gift card purchase) and it is AMAZING!!! Lookee here:
Do you see the long handle? The brush part is just wide enough, and it scrubs really well! I LOVE THIS THING!!! For the first time ever, I want to wash dishes. This is crazy, I know. It costs $4.50, but I would WILLINGLY buy another one, even without a gift card. I also love how it's wood, and not plastic. I love wood handled kitchen tools. I'll have to do a post some time about my antique ones. They work so much better than new tools.
But I digress..
Do you see the long handle? The brush part is just wide enough, and it scrubs really well! I LOVE THIS THING!!! For the first time ever, I want to wash dishes. This is crazy, I know. It costs $4.50, but I would WILLINGLY buy another one, even without a gift card. I also love how it's wood, and not plastic. I love wood handled kitchen tools. I'll have to do a post some time about my antique ones. They work so much better than new tools.
But I digress..
Monday, December 28, 2009
Great is Thy Faithfulness!!
I couldn't pass up the chance to join Laura in a Gratituesday for all of 2009. I am thankful to God for so much this year.
1. My wonderful husband. We have had our share of tragedy this year, but our marriage has become stronger because of it. I love him more every day.
2. My church family. Recently a young man at our church was tragically injured in a logging accident. A tree branch that was being cut struck him on the head, and caused damage to his frontal lobe and severed his spinal cord. Thanks be to God, he has no brain damage. He is paralyzed, but is taking it in stride. Our church banded together to pray for this boy, and on Sunday, as his dad wheeled him into the worship service, we all stood together, clapping, and praising our Savior, who HEALS!!!
3. My wonderful dog Piper. She is a loyal companion, and foot licker.
4. Colby and I both have jobs. In this tough economy, with the 16% unemployment rate in our community, we know just how lucky we are.
5. We have a warm and cozy house to come home to every night, with more than enough food on our table. That is more than millions of others have in the world.
6. My salvation. Without Jesus, I am nothing.
What are you thankful for this year?
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Disney World!
Colby and I just returned from our favorite place, the happiest place on earth, DISNEY!! This is, embarrassingly, the second time we've been this year. We went over the summer, and then we couldn't pass up the FREE dining plan they started around fall, so we went again, December 3-8.
One of my favorites, the Tea Cups. Colby, of course, must spin the wheel as fast as possible. I just stare right at him so I won't get sick. He almost fell out of the teacup this time. Lol.
My personal favorite thing. Colby rubbing my feet on the TTA.
Cinderella's Castle lit up with special Christmas lights. Amazing.
This is the first time (out of 7 that we've been together) that we've ever gone around Christmastime. I highly recommend it, except I would've gone a little earlier than we did. We went around the first weekend in December, and we should've gone during the earlier part of the week. There was NO ONE there on Thursday or Friday, but it was PACKED on Sunday and Monday.
It was also FREEZING cold on Friday and Saturday, and it rained all day Friday. 45 degrees and raining is COLD in Florida. We didn't bring near enough clothes, and had to buy stuff, of course. This is how we looked on Saturday night.
I had on like three shirts underneath that, and was still really cold. It was totally worth it, of course.
Here we are at the best ride ever: Toy Story Midway Mania. We rode three times, and I finally beat Colby the third time.
Oh, how I love Disney!!!! I would totally go back again next month, but we're thinking it's going to be a while before we go back :(
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